Thursday, December 3, 2009

Whining and an update...

Just some run of the mill whining to go with my cheese. I feel like complaining but don't know who to complain to, and really, nothing good can come of it.

First, surgery-wise, I'm doing great. Everything is healed up. My scars are still angry pink but they are healed, including the onQ pain pump site that was infected. I finished the antibiotics that my pcp gave me and was feeling pretty good. I saw Dr. Smith last two weeks ago today, on the 19th and he cleared me for work. My first week back to work was Thanksgiving week. It was nice because it was a short week and kinda broke me in.

This week is my second week back and I feel pretty ok. I make sure to take string cheese and some of those buddig lunch meat packs. I also have some lunchables that I have eaten at lunch. I was really worried about food at work but it's been pretty easy so far. My typical schedule is to have a shake on the way to work. If I don't do this, I'm behind on protein all day long. So I make sure to get it in by the time I hit the floor at work. That's about 8:30ish. By 9:30-10 I'm ready for real food and am HUNGRY. We have a cafeteria downstairs and I can get an egg and three pieces of bacon for like $2.50. I know that adds up and I should make it at home but I'm not there yet. I usually eat lunch about 12:30ish and then a snack or two. On the way home I try to have a protein bar. Water has been fine - I get at least 60 ounces a day. I find I have a hard time estimating protein for things that aren't pre-packaged.

So the whining...first, I don't feel good. I've had kinda a mucus kinda cough. So far it hasn't gone deep in to my lungs and I pray that continues. It's just kinda an annoying drip and cough. I hate being sick! X(

Second...I'm in a stall. And it's SUPER annoying. I've only dropped three pounds since the 21st. That's almost two weeks! GRRRR! And I would read people who would post in a panic on OH about how they are stalled and have been for weeks and that they are the ones that the DS is not going to work for them. And I would think "you fucking idiot, you just had weight loss surgery. Of course you're going to lose weight. STFU". But here I am, bummed and frustrated that I have not lost like I did the first month. *sigh* My clothes are getting looser but it's just frustrating and I feel like a whiny baby. People keep asking me how much weight I've lost and I have to keep saying the same number over and over. My one sanity factor is that I started my period yesterday and I'm praying I'm carrying water weight and I'll magically drop 10 lbs when it's done. A girl can hope!

And I am not the brightest crayon in the box. I decided to really test the limits of my carb intake. In an all day training class with about 15 of my peers. Smart? I think not! LOL For breakfast, they brought in dunkin donuts. I was good and had my three pieces of bacon, and picked up what I thought was a blueberry cake donut thing. Nope, it was pumpkin and it was TO DIE FOR. I thought I could resist it after a few bites, but nope, I consumed the WHOLE donut. That was about 10 am. By about 2 pm I could feel it coming on. My stomach started gurggling something fierce. And I had zero gasx with me. So I tried to tough it out but no such luck. I excused myself to the bathroom and released some much needed air (two times in an hour) and after that I was fine. Until I got home and then the dhr hit. I think I had my first orange slick and it was pretty gross!

So that's about it at this point in my journey.